Dating a Doll

I came to find that humans are selfish creatures that will just end up hurting you. I have come to appreciate the good people in my life and what they do for me. But it is far too emotionally draining to be tied in romatically with another human being. The primary key to happiness is to love and value yourself.

But in my discovery of life and truth, I have held on dear to my hobby of dolls. I have always loved dolls and just toys in general. They are an escape from reality; I create my own fantasy worlds and live in them. I transform into fantasy form and live out all my dreams, because most of dreams are not able to be fulfilled in real life. My dolls are of course loyal to me and the bond we share is very special. I have put my trust and memories and knowledge into them; they are a manifestation of all I love and feel. My dolls feed off of energy, mainly positive, they also have sentient energy themselves which is known as "Mononoke" (the spirit/life energy of an inanimate object).

I groom and care for all my dolls, it's the least I can repay them with. I appreciate and admire the beauty of dolls. And there is some particular handsome dolls I would like to purchase in the future. Having a doll is sort of like being in a relationship; they require care/attention, they usually accompany you on your journeys or wherever, you may or may not sleep with them, and we co nfide in them. I'm sure we've all at some point talked to a beloved toy and confided in them with secrets. It seems to be that toys are the only thing that can keep a secret nowadays. Too much backstabbing and fake people in the world, you truly can't confide in anyone.

My dolls don't want me to associate with people a lot, they communicate through me telepathically. We are connected spiritually. I am the main vessel of their communication; I speak for them. Sometimes a doll can have a spirit attached to them; the spirit of a deceased person. But you can usually sense this; sometimes I can pick up a psychic reading just from looking at or holding an object. But inanimate objects, objects that don't have the ability to move on their own, they rely on a vessel of communication (human) to help them communicate and live out their lives.

I am a proud Pagan and I believe in spirituality, nature. I worship nature; I feel inclined to protect it and stand up for those that can't fend for themselves. Even plants and trees. I have a lot of love for the nature and animals that surround us; we are honestly in debt to them, they are the main sustanence of life. Trees give us oxygen and shelter, vegetables and fruit give us food, plants give us medicine, animals give us loyal companionship, the Earth is our home. We are surrounded by energy, both sentient and non-sentient. Energy is powerful and can even be manipulated if you have the power/ability to do so; but it cannot be created or destroyed. Since energy is all around us, it's easy for it to enter inanimate objects. But everything with a shell that is capable of housing energy can hold sentient energy as well. Memories, knowledge; it is all stored in our brain as energy and it can be distributed.